Wow, it has been a very long time since I last ventured onto here, life has been so very different over the past 5 years since I had my son. Who would have thought I would be starting a family all over again 24 years after having my daughter?
The plans I had made when I started doing my textiles degree back in 2013 were practically abandoned by the time I left in 2016 with a small baby.
That small baby is now a 5 year old school boy with the energy of an Olympic athlete. I soon realised that at over 22stone in weight and being a much older mum things had to change for me in certain areas, so in 2017 I joined a weight loss organisation and over the following two and a half years lost 12stone and became a consultant with the company buying my own franchise in it. When I turned 50 last November during the global pandemic, I was fitter, thinner and healthier than I have been since I was perhaps 9 0r 10 years old!
It has been a pleasure being a mum again as my daughter got way beyond childhood and into adulthood, but it certainly hasn't been easy, and I do feel like yet again I have put life on hold as I struggle to juggle everything it has thrown in my direction. HOWEVER I am beginning to feel that familiar old kick up the bum that makes me move forward and start to plan what direction my life will be heading to in the near future.
The crafting bug has never gone away, waned a little a times, swapped allegiance from one craft to another, and at times vanished all together briefly but as times move towards a greener more ecological future I am beginning to make tentative steps in certain directions, directions I feel are hopefully going to make me happy, satisfy my need to work for myself in an occupation that I know is sustainable and will keep me wanting to do more and more of it. I have tried so many avenues in the past it can at times feel a little hopeless and futile, but that I now see as a learning exercise into what I have enjoyed and would like to expand on, and what has been a failure or experience that I never want to repeat - I have learned to learn them!
I always say I don't have enough time to do everything I want to do, but turning 50 has made me realise that if I don't start to find or make the time, then the time it runs out is a lot sooner than it used to be!
Happy Crafting folks of blogland, and fingers crossed I will be back soon!
